Stability

The big day is quickly approaching. My surgery will start at 7:30 a.m. next Friday. We need to check in at 5:30 a.m. It should last about 6-8 hours. It’s a long surgery because they have to move very slowly and methodically to remove the tumor while preserving my nerves in the area. In my mind, I keep picturing the game Operation. I have full confidence in my team, which feels good.

I met with the neurosurgeon last week and he was great. I asked about avoiding Covid and he told me to just “act normal” and not worry about it. I told him he doesn’t know me very well! LOL!!

I have also started doing acupuncture. I feel like I have a well rounded support team now – vestibular PT, acupuncture, chiropractor and a therapist. Acupuncture is super relaxing and has helped me stay relatively calm with my thoughts.

I’ve decided to lay low until next Friday. Everyone keeps telling me to enjoy this time and the solitude, but it’s really hard for me. I’m an extrovert and tend to feel depressed when I’m not out and about. I’ve been going on lots of walks and looking up fall decorating ideas on Instagram. I have been ordering a ridiculous amount of stuff from Amazon. It’s retail therapy. Not the best coping strategy, but it’s keeping me busy.

Thank you all so much for supporting me during this time. Kyl’s parents are coming in from IL to help with our pets while I’m in the hospital. It’s super nice of them. My parents will be with Kyl in the hospital.

My therapist thinks I make a lot of jokes so I don’t have to deal with the pain of the last 20 years… I think most funny people have been through some shit!