Stability

Hi everyone. It’s been a surreal couple of days at home grappling with this new reality. I can’t even put into words how it feels. I keep thinking about Picasso and his distorted face paintings, and that’s kind of how it feels.

Sometimes it feels like my right eye isn’t part of my face. Sometimes I feel like my entire right side is numb and tingling. Sometimes I feel “normal” and laugh and then get a painful reminder. It’s hard to feel so vulnerable and dependent on others. Kyl is being a saint and making sure I’m comfortable and fed.

Eating is getting easier each day, thank goodness. For the first few days it was mostly smoothies. Last night I had what felt like an actual meal.

We’ll get there, I know. For now it’s baby steps. Tomorrow I have a post-op neurosurgeon visit where I will for sure ask for my facial function back!